interview

i'm gonna have my job interview the day after tomorrow,as a medical doctor
for those of u who might be wondering,yup,its a new system..all medical dr have to undergo a job interview just like any other jobs
yeah,i'm just as nervous just like everybody else whose going for job interviews
actually its not my 1st time
i went to several job interviews before this
when i was looking for a part time jobs previously
so,actually,i do have experience!hehe
well,it doesnt really count actually,cuz i wasnt serious

hmm..about life?i'm currently in my last 3rd posting
16 wks to go for final exam
i'm starting to freak out

uhhh..baru2 ni i had a fight with an idiot
that person is an idiot
eventhough we already apologize to each other,made up
but i'll totally gonna ignore that nut head for the rest of my life
i cant forget all the shitty things that person did and said to me
eventhough publicly i was quiet,( aku x bising kt fb mcm ko lah bongok)
(aku bising pon kt blog aku yg maybe xde sape bace pon duhhhh)
i was very much disturbed and i will not forget it
but we're cool..we're cool..x gadoh dah,tp x kawan dah.
and i dont give a shit for loosing a shitty friend like u,so ok la..
besides, i was already annoyed with u for such a longgg time already.haha

ok..tata~~

ribut taufan sonamu

hari ni dpt sms from bro
masjid kubang kerian announce mlm ni dijangkakan ada ribut taufan akan melanda area pantai timur
nauzubillah
selamatkanlah kami Ya Allah
masa ni la terpikir,byk nya dosa2
rasa mcm nk balik umah,dok ngan mak abah
tp byk keje nk buat
Ya Allah..selamatkanlah kami...
bila terpikir balik,dlm masa2 mcm ni..xde sape leh selamatkan kita,selain Tuhan

be strong!

after taking my nephew from school today for his 1st day of school,seeing him in tears,i realized life is full with problems and stress.everyone,in every stage of their life has their own problems.but as we grow up,we became more matured and resistant to tears.we just need to buckle up,face our problems and be stronger that we were yesterday.thanks a an for making me realized this!i need to be stronger!
just the right time for this,i need this,lately i've been under tremendous amount of stress :(


*happy new year everybody! *   ; )

beautiful world!

the world is beautiful!
i love travelling!
whenever i feel sad or depressed,i always surf the web looking for interesting places to visit
it gives me encouragements to work hard in life,so that one day,i'll be successful and i'll be able to visit all the beatiful magnificant places
it makes me calm and happy at the same time
i just love visiting new places,meeting new people
i think it's very exciting!

Yg ni taman sakura kt japan

This one plak,waterfall at grand canyon.USA

Yg ni,pantai kt australia

a beach at bora bora island.magnificant!

this is a view inside of a cave,Carlsbad Cavers at New Mexico..most people think its boring to explore a cave,cuz its dark and boring,but actually there's alot of interesting things u can see/do inside a cave.kt malaysia,i've been to Gua Tempurung,its nice and challenging.

MALDIVES!!famous tourist spot.famous spot for honeymoon also.superb!

this is also a cave,a marble cave.at Pantagonia.yg ni gambar betol tau,not photoshop i think.its hard to believe a beautiful place like this do exist isnt it?Subhanallah..

Moraine Lake,at Alberta National Park,Canada.

Mount Roraima,Venezuela.this is a famous tourist spot among rich people.there's helicopter ride to the top of the mountain,which i think it would be verryyyy expensive la..but can u imagine?lepak at gunung,ATAS paras awan!bile dlm flight pn kite tgk awan dah happy kan,yg ni leh lepak atas awan.perghh,cun abes

yg ni,nama tmpt dia "shipwreck island" ke ape..Navagio Beach,Greece. famous tourist spot jugak.again,among rich people.biase yg starcruise punye package tu.its nice

i've always like snows.This one kt Argentina.

this is a park.national park,Plitvice Lake,Croatia.bayangkan,boleh jalan2 kt park ni.lawa.my dreamland.

another beautiful beach.this one at spain.

it's GREECE! one of the most beautiful city in the world!for me the most beautiful place!!bandar nye sgt lawa,byk filem hollywood wat shooting kt sini.cube tgk gambar tu,siap ade swimming pool lg,magnificant kan!someday,i wanna go here..

this is the north pole.x ramai leh jejak kaki ke sini.it's pretty,but i'm too scared to go there.takut kena frostbite.

Verdon Gorge,France.

anddd many more.actually this is just a collection of pics i've saved in my computer.u see,when i'm sad,i like to search the web for these kind of pics.just for fun.so kt lappy ni,byk gile gambar2 pemandangan cantik2.smpai dah x ingt kt mane.tp yg pnting,bile tgk,rase tenang.inilah kekuasaan Allah swt.God is so great.He made this world so beautiful.

not good enuff

that awkward moment..
when u realize u're not good enough
that u've been overestimating urself
arg
i hate it

ok,another depressing entry from me.i dont know,maybe the fact that i'm constantly under pressure as a medical student,make me more vulnerable to emotional disturbances.i've got to hang on,there's a reason for everything that happened.

“love the life you live.
live the life you love.” 
― Bob Marley

awesome quote isnt it?yeah,its cool.but sometimes its very hard to love the life u live.there's just so many imperfections,so many things that are lacking.but guess what,that's life.life is not a bed of roses! it's full of thorns,but that what makes it beautiful.after u've successfully went through all the pain,u'll end up in a garden full of flowers.u'll see a rainbow after the rain.that's life.u have to be strong!
u dont always get what u want
other people might get it easily
but for u,maybe not
but when u think about it,
u might appreciate it more once u get it
that's why God made it that way

"God is not cruel"
that's what my radiology lecturer said
she's right
God love us,that's why He always planned everything perfectly for us
God is perfect
that's why we must have more patience

dear heart,please be strong.

zzzz.

hye y'all!
assalamualaikum!
hurm..it's been a long time..haven't got the chance to update this crappy blog(eventhough no one's interested in reading it i guess..but..just in case...just...heheh)
i've realised my past posts are quite depressing isnt it..u guys must be thinking : what a depressing girl..haha..ok,from now on,i'll try to show the cheerful side of me.well,its not my fault isnt it,i only felt like blogging when i felt like shit,when i'm happy,i felt like studying instead.i do have to face my final exam soon..(OMG!)
u know,all those people,putting everything they felt on their fb status.i mean,it's not really my buissness,but it's quite annoying to see them all over the fb wall.FB IS NOT UR PUBLIC DIARY U KNOW!i dont agree with those people who are pouring everything out in the fb status.i felt like i wanna remove them from the friends list.with all those whining,cursing,pleading,blaming the God,blaming everyone else,not happy with everything,seeking for sympathies.u know,those people,they can only give u fake sympathies(the most) or the wouldnt care less.or they might only feel annoyed with u.

i'm talking about all those people of are constantly writing an essay on their fb status.if u're one of them,then i highly suggest u to stop.if u feel like u feel like doing so,why not blogging instead.that way,u can write more,nobody might feel annoyed,if someone wants to know 'bout u,they'll just click on ur link.wallah!
ok,enough of that.
i wanna talk about me.so currently i'm in my 5th year medical school.soon to be a dr.DR NUR SARAH.cewahhh(wah,takutnya!byk lg x study,byk lg x prepare!)..heee..i'm in my paeds posting,previously obs and gynae posting(which was no fun at all).i hate labour rooms!(got some black memories there..screw u stuff nurses!just because ur life is shitty,full of crap,u wanna make sure everyone else have the same f***ing miserable life as u do isnt it?)huh....sabar sarah,sabar..everytime the memories of labour rooms comes crossing my mind,i'll have these teary eyes.
fuh..relax..relax..let bygone be bygone!please god,let the next time i'm posted in labour room be a good memory instead.please..
ok..lets forget about that please..
ah,jom study.byk merapu je.dah la pg td x gi ward round.ngaaaa...what's wrong with me...xpe,tonight i'll go to ward to clerk patient for my case report.now solat zohor,study!gambatte!!!
p/s : my eldest sister is getting married soon.soooo happy for her.everyone at home is happy for her big day too.so do i.hehe
bye2 for now!

Just a pic of me in my medical student uniform,in my room.
ade parut kt kening,sbb jatuh mase kecik2.sob3

(T.T)

its very sad
when u dont get what u want in life
its very sad
when u know that something will never gonna be yours
its very sad
when u know that someone else gonna have it
its very sad
when u think u deserve it more that others
its very sad
when u cant do anything about it
its very sad
when u know deep its inside,its time to face the facts
its very sad
when u keep denying the facts
its very sad
when u keep thinking about it eventhough u know its useless
its very sad
when there's totally nothing u can do about it
its very sad
when everyday u have to live with it
its very sad
when u think about the time u've wasted for it
it's very sad
when u know its time to move on,but u dont want to
it's very sad
when u just cant let go of it
its very sad
when it's time to face the real world
its very sad
so sad
so frustrating
so deep
so disturbing
so emotional...

BUT IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP!FACE THE FACTS!FACE THE LIFE!ONE MOMENT U GAIN SOMETHING,THE NEXT MOMENT U LOOSE IT!SO BUCKLE UP AND FORGET ABOUT IT!!CUZ ITS TOOOOTALLLY NO USE TO BE THINGKING OF SOMETHING THAT CAN NEVER BE CHANGED!!!!

sakit ati..

setengah org mmg suke buat lawak yg x klakar langsung
atau blh dinamakan lawak bodo
sbb ape
sbb org yg buat lwk tu bodo kot
xleh nk pikir psl org lain
xleh nk respek org lain
otak ade tp xmo gune
agak2 r nk buat lwk pn
tgk la keadaan sesuai ke x
jgn dok pikir ko sorg je
bangang punye manusia
selagi aku sabar,aku sabar
but dont ever cross the line la my friend

facebook

i'm starting to think facebook is stupid
but everytime i switch on the laptop
my cursor automatically go to google chrome>most visited site>www.facebook.com
duhhh
what a loser
sometimes i'm just feeling bored,got nothing else better to do,
so i just take a look what other people are doing in facebook

sometimes i i feel like facebook is just a load of crap
people posting stuff about their daily activities,
like the whole world wanna know what the hell they do every single day,every single minute,every single second
where they had been,what they felt at that moment,what achivements they get,
or how cool they are,how nice they are,how clever,or successful or pretty they are
sometimes i was like, "who gives a damn?"
but guess what
i might unconsciously did the very same thiing too
duhh
pathetic isnt it

sometimes i really do think of permanently closing my account
but i always end up reactivating it
what is wrong with me
what happened to me in the past few years
its like i've been addicted to this stupid facebook
eventhough seriously i really think its starting to get very very boring
and lousy
and lame

hmmm..what happened to me i wonder
2 years ago i never had any facebook account
i had friendster acc instead
but because i thought it was so damn boring
i rarely log in
2 years ago..
i never knew what youtube was like
what is it for
how to operate it
but now,it became one of my top viewed page
beside some anime webpage that is.

oh how i missed my old self
i was ok without all these crappy stuff
but now it became part of me
and it is DEFINITELY NOT COOL
but here's the happy part : i rarely post anything on facebook anymore
i just log it to play cityville(another stupid thing to do)
then checking out other people's status(eventho most of the time i find it not interesting)
i rarely stalk anyone's profile right now(what a crazily stupid thing to do stalking other people's page)
and i rarely visit the youtube page(lets just hope i can keep this up,God knows what happens in the future)
so basically i'm detaching myself from all these unbenafitial crappy stuff
and i hope someday i'll succeed in getting rid of it!
screw the facebook!

but i learned a lot of things from facebook as well
it kinda opens my mind about what's happening in the real world out there
i'm able to seek the truth
and look at the world in a different perspective
so i guess there's a bright side on it too
i guess it depends on the individual
weither to use it wisely or wrongly
that's for us to decide

I HATE THIS FEELINGS

suddenly people can be so sad without a reason

feeling worthless,some sort of like a loser

i hate this feelings

sometimes people can be annoyed by all the people surrounding them

hate to see the smile on their faces

because deep inside they wish they had that smile too

i hate this feelings

when everything seems to be so wrong

when dark clouds are coming to hide the sunshine

when happiness seems to be fading away

i hate this feelings

when i realize now its time to face the reality

and to leave the fantasy

when its time to face the cruel world

when its time to face the dissapointments

when its time to face competitions

i hate this feelings

the feeling of fear

fear of the future

because we dont know

whats waiting for us

when we step out of the door...

lipas!

binatang yg buat aku xleh tido mlm (besok mesti pengsan)
buat aku palpitation secara tiba2
buat aku rasa tension bagai nak gila
buat aku rasa nk mangamuk
buat aku xleh nk study
buat aku lari lintang pukang
buat aku mencarut sorang2
buat aku risau2
boleh wat org ada generalised anxiety disorder
kalau katak?xpa.tikus?xpa.cicak?xpa
lipas?NO WAYYYY!!!
its 5 am in the morning and i couldnt sleep becoz of u!screw u!
i wish u could understand human language
i wish u could go online
and have ur own fb acc
and read this blog
cuz i sincerely wanna tell u
sincerely from my heart
I HATE UUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!
jangan ganggu hidup aku la mangkuk!eii..geram betol
dalam Islam
kita blajar
semua ciptaan Allah swt ni ada hikmahnya
ada sebab Allah swt cipta lipas..mesti ada..i'm sure
and here i am..everytime i encounter one
i kept wondering...
kenapa Allah swt cipta lipas?
if u have an answer,pls tell me
(siapa blh jawab aku kasi hadiah)
macam mana nk overcome phobia aku ni
dulu ada blajar
behavior therapy
tp tgk gambar lipas pn dah heart rate naik tahap melampau
ni nk pegang???
arghhh...having the thought of it already making me nuts
besok kena keluar,cari kelengkapan nk berperang ngan menate nih!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

entry ni aku x letak gambar lipas.sbb geli sgt.
aku letak gambar kucing sbb kucing binatang paling best!

-Insan yg sdg tension-

sebut betol2

tak boleh ke kita sebut betol-betol?
semua nk eja ala2 baby
awat wat gitu?nk tunjuk comel?manja?
bluerghhh
muntah ijau aku

kalau makan = mamam
tido = tito
basuk = mucuk (yg ni paling what-the-hell)
comey = tomey
masam = masyam (curse you!)
suka = syuke

dan bla3 macam2 lagi istilah bajet cute sesetgh org guna
hah
yg ni satu lg
sukeeeeeeeeeee sgt huruf W
semua benda nk tambah W
aku bagi makan ngan huruf W baru tau

suka = sukeWWWWWWWWWWWWW
belanja = belanjeWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
kenapa = kenapeWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
banyaknye = banyaknyeWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW


tak leh ke kita tulis btol2?
wth btol la der
klu yg pompuan guna wa leh tahan gak
klu yg laki guna
erghhhhhhhh
wa mau sepuk je kepale lu
especially klu nk ngorat gadis2 yg die sukeWWWWWWWWW
mula la
ckp mcm ni
bajet saham up sket r ckp gitu
LMAO!
(post ni x ditujukan direct kepada sapa2,this is just general,sapa terasa wa tarak leh wat papeWWWWWWWWWWW)

x leh ke kita stulis betol2?
i tak syukeww tauwwwwwwwwwwwww nyahhhh

vacation!

Finally!
the loooong-awaited family vacation is here!
esok nk gi bercuti kt pulau perhentian!
dah lama tunggu,
sblom amik professional II exam lg dah plan
cant wait!
hehe
snorkeling,bbq,mandi pantai..aaaaaa
excited nyerhhh..ehehehe
i prefer this kind of holiday
drpd pegi bandar2 besar,shopping ke ape..semua tu x best
NATURE IS THE BEST!
(mode excited x hengat)
esok kena bgn kol 5 pg,lepas subuh nk bertolak dah..
xpeeee...saya sanggup korbankan masa tido saye!
hahaha
just berdoa weather ok,n xde pape mslh
semoga percutian dilindungi Allah swt..aminnn

YIPPIE!!!

colours!

the colour of the clothes you're wearing actually represents something about urself..

check out if it's true or not.look at urself,what u're wearing and how u're feeling right now! ..i dare u..hehe :


blue=depressed

red=angry

yellow=frightened

green=jealous

pink=romance

turquoise=calm

purple=spritual

orange=energetic

brown=comfort

grey=boring

white=peace

black=powerful

so?true or not?heee..(benda ni tipu je nih..i'm wearing red tp x rase marah pon!)hahaha..

what's ur fav. colour?

maaf...

sometimes in life we did somethings that are hurtful to others
sometimes we unconsciously said somethings that made other people feel sad,disappointed..or pissed off
sometimes we became the victim
sometimes we became the culprit
sometimes we made other people shed their tears because of our evil words
sometimes we shed some tears because of what other people said about us,like how u dress,or how your physical looks like,
it's really hurtful n unpleasant,believe me,i know it very well,
even if that person was only making a silly joke
or just trying to give u a sincere comment that they thought might make u try to make yourself a bit better(according to their standards)
believe me,sometimes those comments are not welcomed by the listener,but sadly the listener doesn't know how to say "stop!" or "s t f u"
because sometimes,somethings are unchangeable...
and sometimes,we also purposely used our mouth to hurt others with our words,
sometimes we did it just to make us feel better about ourselves,
sometimes we failed to stop our self from insulting others,
but don't you just feel bad after throwing those horrible words at them?
i know i did..but sometimes our biggest ego prevented us from apologizing
be careful,because someday those words will come running back straight at ya
so,sometimes we just need to keep our mouth shut
so that we don't hurt other people
and here,i would sincerely apologise
to those people
who were hurt by my nasty words
cuz i know,sometimes i do crossed the lines
either it was purposely or not
i would love to say
I AM SORRY...

komik!

ok..its time for me to update my "tak laku" blog..hehe..
for this entry,it is actually for those who have interest in manga/anime a.k.a comics.
but dont worry,for those who never read any manga,let me introduce to all of u my top 5 manga :

1)no.1 of course ONE PIECE..it is about a journey of a group of pirates!yg best nye,die ada semua elemen klakar,serius,lawan2(shonen),sedih2 dll..kira secukup rasa lah!haha..but for those who are interested in romantic stuff,this is not something u'll find interesting.its more towards long lasting friendship,brotherhood n stuff..

2)Naruto..yg ni mmg besttt...kire klu bace feeling abes la..penulis dia pandai buat org rasa sedih smpai berair mata tuu..basically its about ninja world..dlm naruto,its totally unexpected.sapa2 blh mati,anytime.so agak berdebar bila baca.dia lawan2 pon best,sgt coool jalan cerita dia.dan dia lukis hensem2 dan lawa2..heheh..dia ada romantik jugak,tp sket2 je lah..yg ditekankan aspek2 friendship,family relationship..sgt touching...

3)GTO a.k.a great teacher onizuka..ni komik lama..dia ada buat drama yg real,tp yg anime dia 3x lebih klakar dan best drpd drama dia.mmg best,x rugi tgk!teacher onizuka dia sgt hensem! >.<

4)beelzebub.haaa...manga ni jugak sgt klakar.dia pasal gangster ni terpaksa jaga anak raja setan yg baby lg..dia komik baru,anime dia baru start,ada dlm 10 episod baru..best la pasal deliquents2,budak2 sekolah jahat dan ganas,campur ngan magic2.

4)slam dunk..satu lg komik lama..ni keluar masa i sekolah menengah dlu rasanya..ke lama lg..tp ni citer psl basketball..sgt cool dan lawak jugak..berdebar n unexpected..tp ending dia mcm hampeh sket,tergantung..tp still,one of the best comic i've ever read!ouh..sendoh sangat hensemmm..hiihi

 5)samurai deeper kyo..yg ni best,byk lawan2 jugak..komik lama,dah abih dah pun series die..setting dia zaman dulu2 kt jepun,so u can expect org pakai baju traditional,lawan2 pedang..ada byk magic2,dan klakar..yg ni ada jugak part2 romantik2,dan friendship..kartun die lukis lawa..(tp dia punya anime x brape best)

dan BANYAK lagi manga2 lain best..cm fairy tail,kekaishi,n bla3..bleach i brapa minat sbb dia mcm melampau lampau power dia.best jugak,tp mcm konon ade sorg tu dah abis power la,org terhebat skali mase tu.tp tiba2 dia kalah mcm gitu je,ada lagi yg power lebih2 dr dia.mcm tu la...u got what i mean right?okeh...nnt i sambung len kali plak..mybe carta 6-10 plak..ciaow!

(haha..gambar ni saje je nk letak..btw,ganas kan badak tu?!)

face palm!

Today's new entry!(actually i x brape kesah nk hias2 my blog!dang!lgpn x pandai)haha..btw,today i saw something funny on the net ,

here goes:

 haha..got it?

royal wedding cake!

now i want 2 share with u all something  i found on the internet.

jeng jeng jeng

koleksi2 royal wedding cake!

sgt PRETTY kan?kan?kan?

mcm2 bentuk ade..

                                                   bentuk castle!sgt lawaaaa
                                              

                                   cube perhatikan btol2 "ukiran" dia mmg cantik!

                                               
                                           ni nak makan pon sayang ni...                                      

                                          ehhhh..yg ni bukan cake tau..yg kucing sebenar yg
                                                                  sgt cute ouhhhh!